So this is the last day you wear that orange shirt of Martabe. The last day you teach and being surround us in this site. The last day you wear those make up and make people here stare at you, the last day you have your low carbo meal for your lunch, the last day you’ll have your last supper in Mes Hall, the last day you will sit at the verandah of R4.4 and smoke one or two (and more 😉 ), the last day you will sleep in our sharing room. The last day we’ll hang out in this site, my dear friend Berlian.
You are a sister in my heart. That’s why I feel a little bit home in this site whenever you are here. I wish I never had those fights with you. But I understand recently that those fights made us know each other well. Sometimes there will be a friction when you try to be the better one and to deal with differences. But you are still the sweetest sanguine sister I ever have.
Do you know that there will be a big hole inside my heart when you leave? Everything will never be the same after you leave. Who will be the one in R4.4 with me to share the jokes, love story, and the cynical opinions about the dramas in the office ? Who will be the person who makes me see the other side of the coin when I’m too blind to? *sigh* I’ve tried to avoid a sentimental reasons to tell, believe me, but I just couldn’t.
Last night I knew you cried in your pillow but I tried not to hold you because I was the weakest of us who tried to avoid the tears run. It’s apparently getting hard and harder for you to leave the life you have here. Trust me, I feel the same also for your leaving. Life goes on and we must keep walking on it, right?
“Home is a question of who, rather than of where.”, you said. You are finding way to get home now, Berlian. You’ve found the love of your life, a man who deserves the better in you. You both will be through the journeys together: in happiness and sadness, in rich and poor, in health and in sickness, and the most important: the perfect love. I wish the very best for you and J. Being married will not keep you happy all the the time, but will keep you grateful being with him and motivated to stay in love every single day.
Moving to Utrecht will be so exciting. But staying there will be so hard in the beginning. I believe that J will take care of you and will never fail to keep you lucky with him. J’s families are also very gentle and nice to you. You will feel home with them there.
Don’t worry about what will you do there for a living. You’re a smart woman. You will find a job soon after you get there, and hopefully that’s the job that you’ve been dreaming of.
I will not say goodbye to you but just say that I’ll see you when I see you in better chances, better surrounding, and I just can’t wait to share some jokes and cynical stories with you again, Bee.
People come and go. Separation hurts indeed. But we’ve got the lessons to lessen the pain.
See you when I see you again, Berlian Utami. *bearhugs*
The Sisterhood in Orange shirt